"You scared motherfucka"
It’s like since we were children
They fed us this idea
That education was the key
Shove it down our throats every
Chance they got
Telling us the only way to success
Was getting a college degree
A lot of us listened so we filled those Applications
Open to the new experience
But we didn’t know
It was an hostage situation
Shit they sent our parents the ransom
Financial Aid ain’t aiding shit
They’re the hijackers
They done hijack our bank accounts
Got they greedy hands in our wallets
Owe these motherfuckas money we don’t got
Before we could taste the taste of success
They done claimed our funds
I watch the sun rise from my window
Another sleepless night
Where I reminisce
How easy things used to be
When my only problems
Were I gotta wait another week
For the new Dragonball Z
Or I hope that bitch of a teacher doesn’t Call my mother
Cause I ain’t finna dodge sandals belts & Extension cords
Cartoon & cereal was my favorite Pastime
Dreaded sunday mornings
Pinches in church when
Moms caught me falling asleep
Fun was picking shit off trees and Throwing at each other
Heated basketball games
Where a shopping cart or a spot on a Wall was the basket
Two hand touch football games
When boredom was a rare condition
Cause my imagination was at its peak
Fights with friends lasted a few hours
Than we back friends like nothing happen
The good times
Sometimes I wish
I was a kid again
Why did he wake up a another day
All he wants is death
He no longer wants to live
If there is a god
Does he have no mercy
This Iv pierced into his skin
Meds clogging his every thought
Where’s the end everyone talks about
Where’s the bright light
Is there no end
He can’t no longer withstand the pain
It’s feel like all it does is rain
A never ending fog
The sun never comes out
A darkness that never goes completely dark
The place where hope is nonexistent
They put them in cages
For trafficking crimes
Numerous of other offenses
Had a couple dimes
Gave them a lot time
Rockefeller Drug laws are a crime
But just another $ sign
Cheap prison labor for
A private prison
It’s slavery all over again
But slavery still legal as a punishment for a crime
Sometimes I wonder are these judges
Getting a cut
While prison populations grow
New prisons are being built
But I guess it’s look past humanity
Anything for monetary gain
She been on the streets
Since teen was attached to the end of her age
Heroin plunged into her veins
Synthetic drugs shoved down her throat
Her pussy for sell
To whoever was willing to pay
Pimped labeled shipped and delivered
To customers more than twice her age
The streets have no heart
She was too naïve
Still wet behind the ears
The streets have no love for anyone
Once told me
He had a magician
For a father
His father had
A great disappearance act
Where he would disappear
Rarely reappear throughout his life
Leaving a hole in him
He wanted filled
Lucky for me
Never took up
Magician as a occupation
I want a Queen.
Matter of fact I need a Queen.
But I’m patiently waiting.
A Queen I could share my dreams with.
Talk to about anything.
Spend hours with without a dull moment.
Be weird with.
A Queen that makes me better.
A Queen that if it came down to it I would be willing to share my last name with
I find the definition
When I dived
Into a pool
Of her thoughts
Where she hid them
And embrace them
Dreamt of being
Lost in the illusion
Then woke up
I feel imprisoned
In a helicopter flying with the propellers missing
Thinking out loud
Chilling in my imagination
Sane but insane
It’s a complicated manner
Ears deaf to slander
Handful of thoughts
But most of them are blunder
Sometimes I just wonder
What if life was a lil sweeter
Pain didn’t cut so deep
Joy was everlasting
Would life be worth living?
The Return Of My Past (2011 out of the vault Ima finish it one day)
The Return Of My Past
“Get the fuck on the floor” Al yelled with 9mm aimed at Jeff’s head.
“Boss gave you a month to get the money and your bitch ass still ain’t got it” Al screamed.
“Please give me a couple more days I’ll get the money” Jeff yelled.
“Where the fuck are you gonna get fifty thousands dollars in a couple days.”
“Trust me I’ll have the money, please just give me a couple more days”. Jeff looked into his wife eyes and seen the tears dripping down her cheeks. A pregnant women shouldn’t be going through this shit. The second man with the shotgun aimed it right at Asia’s pregnant stomach.
“Yo Al why don’t we just take the man’s unborn child , cause he must think boss is playing with his money” Jay uttered.
Jay then cocked his shotgun.
“No” Jeff yelled.
Tears started pouring out Jeff’s eyes uncontrollably.
“Please, please, I’ll get the money please.”
Al then put the 9mm gun into Jeff’s mouth while he pleaded.
“Man the fuck up and stop crying, you knew what you was getting yourself into when you loaned that money” Al said.
Al pulled the gun out of Jeff’s mouth and hit him across the face with it. “Now this is the last warning , you got till Friday to pay up or Jay and I gonna comeback here raped your wife and then hang her while you watch” Al said.
Al struck Jeff across the face again. He then whispered in Jeff’s ear
“If it wasn’t for the bosses wishes of keeping you alive I would have put a bullet between your eyes coward.” Al stood up and spit right in Jeff’s face.
“Don’t know what boss ever seen in you, Jay lets go” Al yelled.
” Wait I want her to give me a little kiss.”
Jay aimed the shotgun to Asia’s face and yelled
“Open your mouth baby I wanna kiss you like the French.”
Asia turned and looked at Jeff crying.
“Why the fuck you looking at him for my lips are up here” Jay said.
She opened her mouth and Jay bended down and stuck his tongue down her throat. He then looked at Jeff and said ” She a great kisser”.
He then stood up and started unzipping his pants
“Now let’s see if this pregnant bitch could suck a dick!”
Right before Jay could pull out his dick Asia threw a right hook hitting Jay between his testicles.
“Bitch” he yelled.
Jay fell to the ground.
“Jay get the fuck up I’m done playing with these two” Al said. Jay slowly stood up then aimed his gun at Asia stomach and fired.
“I never like babies ” Jay yelled.
But it was to late he killed Asia and the unborn child.
“What the fuck you do that for” Al said.
“Bitch tried to take my balls off” Jay said.
“You bastard you kill them”Jeff screamed. The anger Jeff had was like one he never felt. He got up on his feet and charged towards where Jay stood. Jay was prepared and swung the shotgun right at Jeff’s head.
“Who the fuck said you could get up” Al said. They both started laughing. Al open the front door and said
Jay followed Al out the door and started laughing saying
“You better called the medics.”
They finally left so Jeff got up and rushed to the phone and called 911. “I need some help quick” Jeff cried. “Calm down what seems to be the problem” the 911 operator said. “They shot her please hurry they shot her” Jeff replied.
“Where are you located” the 911 operator asked.
“30 Maple Ave hurry “Jeff yelled.
“The officers are on their way” the 911 operator said.
Jeff hanged up the phone and turned to where Asia laid and the sight of her lifeless body brought Jeff pain and anger. Jeff’s past came back to haunt him. A past he tried so hard to run away from.